Monthly Archives: October 2014

Philly with some girls

In other life news we took a trip to Philly where Livv got to see me at my most vulnerable and scared at the Eastern State Penitentiary :o/ it was so much fun tho. Usually I don’t get freaked at that place but I opted to wear the glow necklace thing which allows the actors to touch you and mess with you. That was rad. At one point Livv and I were separated from Susan and Amy and thrown into this cage thing and the guy was yelling something and then stamped our hands and said we were branded or something.


Before we went to Eastern State we went to the Good Dog for dinner and it was yum.



Oh! But before that we went to the Mutter Museum and that was weird.
There was a random guy standing on the staircase wearing a clown mask and he wasn’t part of the museum or anything. Just a weird guy who stood next to me for a minute and then waved goodbye and left the building. It was like a scene from a horror film only I didn’t get murdered which is nice lol


Ok. So first it was the museum. Then food. Then the penitentiary. So much fun. They mark your face with blood and stuff. I was too occupied with clinging to Livv for dear life to take pictures so I asked if I could post some of hers.







How does it feel

Yesterday was my day of divorce. I didn’t sleep the night before because it’s a really humbling thought “this is the last time I’m going to bed as a married woman.” Bc it was. I don’t think I’ll ever get married again simply because I don’t think I’ll ever love someone as much as I love myself or my work. And by work I don’t mean my cafe and theater job, I mean my writing. I’ll never give it up again. It is who I am, it is what frees me and makes me different. I’m in love with my writing and I’m in love with being creative.

It’s funny, the start of my week was with my divorce, I will end my week celebrating the love of my friend Kristen and her fella Jesse at their wedding. I won’t ever give up on love, it inspires me, I just don’t think it’s in my deck of cards. Which is sad but I had a nice experience with it while it lasted.

So, it’s funny, the actual proceedings of the divorce itself was simple. I went to the court with my mom. Met my lawyer there. Listened to one woman’s case and then went before everyone, did the whole hand on bible swear to tell the truth the whole truth nothing but the truth thing and answered a bunch of questions that required a yes or no answer. The judge was very sweet because he could tell I was nervous but it took about ten minutes. My lawyer laughed when I told her my ex was in disney. She rolled her eyes and said it was disrespectful but I know the trip was planned before our court date was issued. So I explained that but she still just shook her head. I have to get used to not defending her anymore but I just never saw her as some other people did. I really believe she’s a good person who has been dealt some shit. I just wasn’t strong enough to deal with the shit anymore.

Anyway, this will probably be the last time I write about my ex and our divorce because that part of my life is over and I have so much going on now. Thursday Livv and I are going with my friends Amy and Susan to the Eastern State penitentiary in Philadelphia. We are going to spend the day doing random stuff and then go to the thing at night. It should be cool. I’m just now starting to go out and do things with my other friends, it’s taken me a while to trust that they’re not going to want to gossip about what happened to my relationship but I honestly do believe they just want to hang and catch up. So that should be fun. Then, like I said before, I have Kirsten’s wedding on Saturday and I begged my friend to join me so that should be fine.
I dunno. Life keeps moving along and I’m just trying to take it all in and enjoy the ride.
We’ll see 🙂
Your friend,





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We had our first table read October 16th, it was awesome…





















The pictures of my friend Livv in her room are from the 15th, when we were putting the scripts together for the actors.
The Season One group photo was created by our lovely and talented graphic designer bestie, Melissa Hodges.
And I’m Lourdi, I do things too. 🙂

I will never call a small a tall ever again

I love my job.
Today a woman asked me if I liked working at this cafe and I told her I loved it. I told her that watching the sunrise over the ocean each morning was the greatest way to start ones day.
Because it is.

Later, another customer asked me to sit and talk with him while he drank his coffee and ate a muffin. So I sat with him and he told me that his bikes name is Murry to which I shared that my cars name is Sampson and he seemed to like that. There was no manager breathing down my neck, disappointed that I wasn’t wiping down the same counter for the hundredth time, but was instead having a civilized conversation with a man who promised to come back because he supports local businesses and was grateful that I sat with him and didn’t just take his money as those corporate bullshit companies always do.
I’m no longer a robot.
I won’t trick you into calling your small coffee a ‘tall’ or charge you 6 bucks to squeeze pasta out of a bag and then microwave it and serve it to you with a plastic fork. If you make me uncomfortable I’m allowed to deny you service until you learn a little respect. I’m allowed to be fucking human and treat you like a fucking human.
I work with lovely and sweet people who don’t gossip about my personal life. Who don’t give a shit about how much time I spend with my best friend and just expect me to do my job and to do it well. And because they are so fair and have created something so special, I want to give them 110%, always.
I’m so fucking grateful.

Other than my cafe job, I also work in an indie movie theater with my best friend. I appreciate what the place offers people. I appreciate the free popcorn and movies.
I love how both jobs leave me enough time to write and go out and live.

All I want is to be happy.
I want to be creative and share things with other curious people.
Waking up isn’t always easy, there’s a lot of shit going on, but on those most disappointing days when I am in fact bubbling with anxiety and sadness, I’m still happy to be breathing.


Your friend,


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I am grateful @30.5 years

Things I’m grateful for:
My moms voice
My family
My best friends
My jobs and coworkers
Being able to watch the sun rise in Asbury Park on the mornings when I open the cafe:


And my view when I leave:


This guy:


And this beautiful mom:


Julia Wertz!


And The Smiths station on Pandora…

Your friend,

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